Felling so low felling weighed down
Trying breath under water but I might drown
Should I tell someone, no they’ll think you’re stupid
These thoughts in my head the thoughts that are lucid
A fight to keep breathing win against wanting to die
Sometimes I question myself like why am I alive?
People checked in trying to live
Saying goodby to loved ones and kids
I’m over here trying to give up
Dunno I’m conflicted feel like I’m stuck
“Your thinking is selfish”, ya that’s what I said
But stand in my shoes, ya you’ll wish you were dead
Trust me I’m not going down, not without a fight
But these are the thoughts that haunt me at night
2 in the morning I’m trying to sleep
When you’re taking a snooze after counting your sheep
Want to know what it’s like to be always awake?
You don’t want to know for sanity’s sake.
This is what it means to live with depression
You can tell him to leave but he won’t learn his lesson
Trust me I’ve tried to make him move out
But it’s hard to do when my head is his house.